DO I HAVE BDD OR MDD?

im a 13 year old boy. im not the attractive type and it really makes me sad. i think i got bdd back when in november 2009 because then i had really long hair and all the kids were saying i looked good in it but my dad didnt. he wants me to have short hair because it makes me look "clean". so that month, i did something stupid by writing profanity words onto my hands with a pen because i thought it was cool. not that i ever would do that but something made me to. so then a isant teacher caught me with the writing on my hand and i got in trouble and i almost got suspended. so then, schools over. my parents know now. my dad picks me up from school and hes all mad about what ive done. and just when i think hes taking us home... he takes my to the ******* barber and he forces me to get my hair buzzed off. i really liked my long hair and now it was gone. after the haircut i was embared to show my face because the only reason why i like long hair is because it hides my face cause im ugly. and with short hair, you can see EVERYTHING on my grotesque face. now at school no girls started to talk to me anymore, & i started to become very shy. now today, i have problems with girls. when ever i see a girl i think is attractive i look down at the floor hiding my face and just walk away. and when one is talking to me, i try to hid my face, i move around, and i barely speak. im just so shy. this made me have severe depression at the point where i started writing suicide notes, hitting myself, wearing masks, and not able to go out of the house. im so ashamed of my facial features. im just so ugly and i hate short hair because it makes me look 5x uglier. im rlly helpless at the moment. and the way my body is shaped makes it worse. i have long skinny arms and legs. i have a skinny chest but my adnomen is all bulgy like santa claus only im skinny. and my face has big *** cheeks and my nose is wide my eyes are very bulgy my eyebrows always look mad. wow this got longer than i needed it to be. any help?